I Am Here Now

I think I was 23 when I started this blog, on the verge of 24. I am now 28, on the verge of 29.

My last few posts were all about the changes I have been going through in the past year, the absolute severity of life’s inevitable roller coaster, and how I handled (and in some cases mishandled) it.

The past few nights have had me in deep introspection. Really thinking back, back and back, and not asking myself why, but finally opening my eyes as to why.

The circumstances of my personal life’s journey have led me to a place that a a mere year ago I did not think existed in the best way possible. Sure, there are always going to be ups and downs, but I’m here. I’m in the moment. I’m here now.

So with all of that said, I am so excited to announce that………..we bought a new house!!

It is a serious upgrade from the house we were living in before. Sure, where we were previously was very quiet and we had a half acre of land and chickens and a garden, but we finally have a place we can truly call a real home. Our land is smaller but we have a fenced in back yard and a preexisting raised garden bed. Our home is more spacious and has a much better energy flow. What do we not have? A friendly neighborhood crackhead that used to knock on our door all hours of the day and night looking for money or a ride…..-sigh-

So, onward to the photos!

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These were obviously taken before we moved in. When I first walked into the kitchen I nearly melted. Since I’ve been with my boyfriend, my culinary game has gone off the charts and we had NO kitchen space before! Unfortunately the fireplaces no longer function, but that’s so trivial compared to what we DO have. And the screened in front porch?! Can I get a hell yes?!

I am so excited to get photos of the house after we are 100% organized and unpacked. We’re taking our time so as not to get overwhelmed and stressed out.

Just before we moved into the house, we had another joyous event: My little brother’s wedding!

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It was a small ceremony at my parents’ beautiful house and property. The first two photo are obviously of the amazing bride and groom, then of course there are the usual Pickens, SC activities: shooting and swimming. I had to show off my boyfriend of course, because he is so stupidly handsome, and the last photo is a view from the front porch. Even rain clouds can’t take away how gorgeous it is!

So I’m definitely in a much better spot in life than I was. Maybe someday I’ll tell the entire story of what exactly happened to me, but for now, I focus on everything positive and the blessings I have in life.

It is my serious intention to record my journey forward, in the form of food, herbs, poetry, and love. Thank you all who have stuck with me this long, I look forward to living life with you!

Love,

Stephanie

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Every Minute, Every Hour, Every Day

Hi everyone!

Last time I posted, I talked about what I had been through since mid November of last year. Things were extremely difficult and I went to a very dark place for a while. Thankfully, with the love and support of my friends and family, I was able once again to return to the light.

I began thinking about my life. Literally from day one. If I wanted I could chronicle it, I have every diary I’ve ever kept since I was 8. What would I call it? I don’t have an answer for that yet, but I do have a revelation.

No one wants pain. No one wants to have to go through emotional, physical, or legal battles. However, every choice we make in this life is part of something bigger. You can call it God’s plan, you can call it fate or destiny. I like to think of it as a fortress of sorts, every stone placed by a Great Architect.

Ever since I was little I dreamed of a sort of pioneer life. Nothing too rustic, I will never give up running water, but I always saw myself in the country. A garden, since I’ve always had a garden, chickens, maybe even some goats. Working land has just always been in my mind. As I grew older the desire grew with me, but the reality of actually attaining it grew dim. These things cost money and in this day and age, even just a livable income can be difficult to come by.Growing older meant prioritizing. I never forgot my dream but more important things had to come first.The other night I was sitting on the couch and I realized…I’m here. I have it.

I actually have everything I dreamed of.

I live in a little brick house in the country on a half acre. I live with a man I love deeply that I met in high school. I have a garden started, and we have plans to fence in the yard and put in a chicken coop.

We have land to work.

When I look back on everything, there is so much pain and darkness. But every single choice I’ve made, every single one since day one, has put me where I’m at right in this moment. Nothing in life will ever be perfect, and I know in the future there will be ups and downs, arguments and make ups, and I can tell you with confidence that I genuinely look forward to that future.

Why? Because all that pain I went through helped me achieve my dream.

Remember to take pain in stride. It exists to help you grow, and in truth we never stop growing. I don’t want to give the impression that I will never go through pain again. The point I want to make is that there comes a point where the pain makes sense. We stop asking why and instead begin to see why.

Be well my friends. And rest assured, as this little homestead grows, there will be many photos ❤

Stephanie

Detox Water and My New Friend

Hey everyone!

I finally have a chance to post about something related to health and wellness. That’s half the reason why I haven’t posted lately – I’ve been lazy and not eating right and PMSy and emotional. Ladies, you know how it is.

But I today as I was groggy at the grocery store at 7:30 AM because I didn’t have any coffee, I decided to make something that I made a long time ago and A) loved and B) don’t know why I don’t make it all the time. I’m talking, of course, about detox water.

It’s super easy to make and has a ton of health benefits. All you need is lemon, cucumber, mint leaves, and water. What can detox water do for you? Here is a short list, taken from a more extensive list at Healthy Holistic Living:

1. Hydrating: Cucumbers are mostly water, so obviously pairing them WITH water is a huge plus for your body. Water helps nutrients go where they need to go, so staying hydrated is extremely important for optimal health.

2. Relieve puffiness: the anti-inflammatory properties in cucumbers can help with this.

3. Cancer fighting: According to Healthy Holistic Living, “cucumber are known to contain lariciresinol, pinoresinol, and secoisolariciresinol. These three lignans have a strong history of research in connection with reduced risk of several cancer types, including breast cancer, ovarian cancer, uterine cancer and prostate cancer.”

4. Aids in weight loss and digestion: This water, with it’s high nutrient content and rehydrating ability, will help flush out toxins and excess water weight.

Here is the super easy instructions:

1. Slice cucumber and lemon thinly.

2. Place in pitcher with mint leaves.

3. Cover with water, chill for four hours or overnight.

And that’s it!

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Not only is it super healthy, but it looks gorgeous too.

My next project is going to be a coffee ground scrub, so look out for that post coming soon!

I also wanted to introduce my newest friend, Smokey Nemo. She’s a teeny little stray cat who followed me home from my neighbor’s apartment around the corner, and she has rarely left my porch since. So I am providing her with food, water, and a little bed while I search for someone who can take her in and get her all the care and shots and vaccinations she needs. She is sweet, loving, and fine with other animals (my dog and cat bolted onto the porch to meet her, she didn’t fight them or get scared at all!)

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If anyone in Wilmington, NC, or the surrounding areas would like to give her a home, please let me know by commenting or emailing me at beunless@gmail.com!

 

Also, I found this thing in the dumpster and had to take it home. I might be crazy, but I think it’s awesome..

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Right?!

Have a safe and wonderful Memorial Day weekend!