I Am Here Now

I think I was 23 when I started this blog, on the verge of 24. I am now 28, on the verge of 29.

My last few posts were all about the changes I have been going through in the past year, the absolute severity of life’s inevitable roller coaster, and how I handled (and in some cases mishandled) it.

The past few nights have had me in deep introspection. Really thinking back, back and back, and not asking myself why, but finally opening my eyes as to why.

The circumstances of my personal life’s journey have led me to a place that a a mere year ago I did not think existed in the best way possible. Sure, there are always going to be ups and downs, but I’m here. I’m in the moment. I’m here now.

So with all of that said, I am so excited to announce that………..we bought a new house!!

It is a serious upgrade from the house we were living in before. Sure, where we were previously was very quiet and we had a half acre of land and chickens and a garden, but we finally have a place we can truly call a real home. Our land is smaller but we have a fenced in back yard and a preexisting raised garden bed. Our home is more spacious and has a much better energy flow. What do we not have? A friendly neighborhood crackhead that used to knock on our door all hours of the day and night looking for money or a ride…..-sigh-

So, onward to the photos!

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These were obviously taken before we moved in. When I first walked into the kitchen I nearly melted. Since I’ve been with my boyfriend, my culinary game has gone off the charts and we had NO kitchen space before! Unfortunately the fireplaces no longer function, but that’s so trivial compared to what we DO have. And the screened in front porch?! Can I get a hell yes?!

I am so excited to get photos of the house after we are 100% organized and unpacked. We’re taking our time so as not to get overwhelmed and stressed out.

Just before we moved into the house, we had another joyous event: My little brother’s wedding!

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It was a small ceremony at my parents’ beautiful house and property. The first two photo are obviously of the amazing bride and groom, then of course there are the usual Pickens, SC activities: shooting and swimming. I had to show off my boyfriend of course, because he is so stupidly handsome, and the last photo is a view from the front porch. Even rain clouds can’t take away how gorgeous it is!

So I’m definitely in a much better spot in life than I was. Maybe someday I’ll tell the entire story of what exactly happened to me, but for now, I focus on everything positive and the blessings I have in life.

It is my serious intention to record my journey forward, in the form of food, herbs, poetry, and love. Thank you all who have stuck with me this long, I look forward to living life with you!

Love,

Stephanie

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Every Minute, Every Hour, Every Day

Hi everyone!

Last time I posted, I talked about what I had been through since mid November of last year. Things were extremely difficult and I went to a very dark place for a while. Thankfully, with the love and support of my friends and family, I was able once again to return to the light.

I began thinking about my life. Literally from day one. If I wanted I could chronicle it, I have every diary I’ve ever kept since I was 8. What would I call it? I don’t have an answer for that yet, but I do have a revelation.

No one wants pain. No one wants to have to go through emotional, physical, or legal battles. However, every choice we make in this life is part of something bigger. You can call it God’s plan, you can call it fate or destiny. I like to think of it as a fortress of sorts, every stone placed by a Great Architect.

Ever since I was little I dreamed of a sort of pioneer life. Nothing too rustic, I will never give up running water, but I always saw myself in the country. A garden, since I’ve always had a garden, chickens, maybe even some goats. Working land has just always been in my mind. As I grew older the desire grew with me, but the reality of actually attaining it grew dim. These things cost money and in this day and age, even just a livable income can be difficult to come by.Growing older meant prioritizing. I never forgot my dream but more important things had to come first.The other night I was sitting on the couch and I realized…I’m here. I have it.

I actually have everything I dreamed of.

I live in a little brick house in the country on a half acre. I live with a man I love deeply that I met in high school. I have a garden started, and we have plans to fence in the yard and put in a chicken coop.

We have land to work.

When I look back on everything, there is so much pain and darkness. But every single choice I’ve made, every single one since day one, has put me where I’m at right in this moment. Nothing in life will ever be perfect, and I know in the future there will be ups and downs, arguments and make ups, and I can tell you with confidence that I genuinely look forward to that future.

Why? Because all that pain I went through helped me achieve my dream.

Remember to take pain in stride. It exists to help you grow, and in truth we never stop growing. I don’t want to give the impression that I will never go through pain again. The point I want to make is that there comes a point where the pain makes sense. We stop asking why and instead begin to see why.

Be well my friends. And rest assured, as this little homestead grows, there will be many photos ❤

Stephanie

Doors and Such

Hi everyone!

Gosh, I have just been so busy. I thought being unemployed would mean some time to relax, and I have had time, but damn have I also ben running around making plans and taking odd jobs and whatnot.

So after I got over the initial anger and depression that comes with being let go from a career, salary, benefits, and whatnot, I began truly thinking and realized that yes, while the career and security were great, the world was my oyster. I could do anything I wanted. I got my degree in graphic design and I am very happy to have that degree. I will never regret the work I put into it, and I will never forget the joy of walking across that stage in my cap and gown. But, I was never passionate about graphic design. I took a hobby and turned it into a career, something I’ve heard you should never do. The one thing I have always been passionate about is writing. I have been writing since I learned the alphabet and could hold a pencil. From poetry to novels, I have written it all.

So I started looking at writing jobs. I knew it would be difficult, but graphic design does technically fall under communications, so I also knew I had a chance.

I replied to a part time job on Craigslist. I heard back from them within a few hours and, after a video interview and some writing tests, I would like to unofficially announce that I was offered the job!

Doors close, and they open. Tragedy can blossom into opportunity.

The other door that is closing is one I am a little bit sad about…at the end of May, I am going to move back to Charlotte. Even though I did get the job, it’s part time and I cannot continue to afford living here. My best friend will be renting me a room in her beautiful new house for a much more affordable price.

I’m excited, and scared, but mostly excited. I cannot wait to see what this new journey holds for me. I’m going to miss the beach and the friends I made here, but my gut is telling me to move on. Move forward. This is not the place where I am meant to grow.

So, I will be writing, and hopefully blogging more! I have some ideas for Unless, and I can’t wait to get started on this new life!

Be well, my friends ❤

Life

Life has been handing me some lemons lately, and it has been very tiring trying to deal with them. This is one of the reasons I’ve been quiet.

This is normal for people my age. I realize that. At midnight on my birthday last month I began having a mid life crisis that I didn’t have much time to truly think about until recently.

When I was 20, living in my very first apartment, I discovered minimalism and began my first ever blog. While that blog is now long lost in the blogosphere, I’ve never really stopped trying to declutter my life. If you knew me personally and have been inside my current apartment, you would not guess that about me. I am very cluttered and I have a lot of sentimental things. But, it has come to my attention that I truly do need to minimize and begin a journey of mindfulness.

So the slow process begins…I want to downsize and rid myself of excessive things that I do not need. I plan on minimizing how much plastic I use, and be better about recycling. I also have begun independent study into medicinal herbalism, and will be trying my hand and creating my own salves and balms!

That’s it for now. I just wanted to make a quick update in between my busy work day hours. We’re nearing the end of our busy season, so soon I’ll have more time to blog and create!

Have a wonderful day!

Stephanie

 

Worst. Blogger. Ever.

Who is the worst blogger in the world? I am!

I won’t make excuses for my absence, but I truly have been extremely busy with work and home life. But I woke up today with a renewed sense of…everything. Not sure what happened, but I just woke up ready to go!

So many goals I want to achieve – weight loss, making my own beauty and cleaning products, learning to make my own clothes, I just want to learn it all!

Not only that, but Justin and I are finally making money. When I say that, I don’t mean it to sound bad, but when we lived in Charlotte, we couldn’t find sustainable work anywhere. Now we are finally able to make enough money and have the ability to save. Because of this, and being in our mid to late twenties, there have been many discussions about our future.

Our goal is to save enough money in the next two years or so to buy a house with land in the mountains. It seems ridiculous, but it’s all we’ve ever talked about and now we have the ability to go for it!

So, dreams, goals, etc, everything will be recorded on this blog because I refuse to be a bad blogger. I just need to manage my time better.

Expect more from me! Because I expect more from myself 🙂